The Stories We Tell About Ourselves: Let Them Go, Let Them Burn

The Stories We Tell About Ourselves: Let Them Go, Let Them Burn

Oh, the stories we tell ourselves about our lives…about who we are. Our precious little narratives that we carry around like small dogs in purses. We love to hold them, coddle them. Then they turn around and bite us. Little bastards. I’m the type of person who is acutely self-aware most of the time, but now and then I get smacked in the face with a truth so apparent, i’m completely shocked I didn’t see it before now. I...

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Why “Do I Want This Enough” is a Dumb Question, and What You Should Ask Yourself Instead

Why “Do I Want This Enough” is a Dumb Question, and What You Should Ask Yourself Instead

Yesterday, I asked myself what might be the most important question of my career. Not just my career up until now, but my entire career, for the rest of my life. The question all creatives must ask themselves, if they intend to make a living from their art. Do I really want this? Yes, I really want to connect with and help people through my writing, and get paid for it. Yes, I want to feel fulfilled in the work that I do. But that isn’t...

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Perfectionism Paralysis

Perfectionism Paralysis

I feel heavy today. Slow, and sluggish. Like my feet are getting sucked into some dark, sticky muck and it takes a full-bodied effort just to walk. Self-doubt is weighing on me, like those lead vests they lay over you in the dentist’s office–you know, when they x-ray your teeth? Do they still do that? (I haven’t been to the dentist in a while.) I finally heard back from the job I wanted so badly–I didn’t get it....

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The Pit of Unworthiness

The Pit of Unworthiness

I’ve been waiting by the phone all day. It rang once, and my heart leapt into my throat. It was a wrong number. (Really??!?!) I’ve spent a month interviewing for a job that want and need very badly. I was told i’d hear back by the end of this week (it’s currently Friday at 12:45pm). Back in August and September, I spent 6 weeks interviewing for a different job that I wanted badly; studying and researching tirelessly to...

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A Guided Meditation for Creative Block

A Guided Meditation for Creative Block

*Trigger Warning* I’m about to get super “woo woo.” new-agey. Actually, meditation isn’t “new age,”–it’s ancient but timeless, and its great for restless creative-types. Self-help is kind of my thing (aka obsession), and I’ve recently stumbled on what I believe to be the holy grail of self-helpery: Acceptance through mindfulness-based meditation. I struggled trying to put a name to this...

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I’ve Been Taking Life Too Seriously

I’ve Been Taking Life Too Seriously

I got up early this morning to study for a job interview. I have a routine when it comes to interviews: I make sure to do my research, review the job description and relate my skills to the job duties. Somehow, I still manage to feel under-prepared. What if they ask a question I didn’t prepare for? What if I forget about a crucial skill I have and never get another chance to let them know about it? I cling so much to the idea of getting...

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Advice from a Serial Avoider

Advice from a Serial Avoider

Have you ever felt like you have so much you want to accomplish– such a massive inner agenda, and you don’t really know where to start, so you freeze and avoid doing anything at all? That’s me. My creative “cycle” looks something like this: I have several ideas I think are brilliant, I start brainstorming them, then I start doubting whether it was in fact a good idea or if it’s total crap, so I drag my feet...

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